Whimsical Mela

we’ve learned all too well from Peter ;)

As i reminisce about the past year and where i was to where i am now, i realize one thing: life is very unpredictable. In every aspect of my life it’s led me to this moment where i am today. And if there is anything i’m taking away from 2011 it’s that i’m truly thankful for everything in my life. From the friends i’ve made to the job i currently possess to the family i have. From the beginning to now, i feel like a more confident person and not because i alone have will power, but it’s God who is helping me along in this journey of my life. To tell you the truth for so many years i’ve always felt lonely to the point i wished & prayed to have a boyfriend and God never led me to a guy i felt worthy for me to date and listening to my heart is the most important thing and i’m still working on it. I havent got it down to a science or anything. Earlier this year i got caught up having crushes on guys who didnt like me and i filled my head with false hope of any chance with these guys. I was a stupid girl because of this and now i’m here to tell you that God’s been changing me these last few months of 2011 and i no longer feel the need to have guys “fill that hole” i’ve been wanting filled for so long. I felt convinced that if i had a boyfriend i’d be something special and this was lie i kept telling myself since i was thirteen. I had been told my whole life that God was the only one to “fill this hole” but i never actually believed it and then these last few months hit me hard and i began to really look into my faith with God, and i can confidently tell you today that God has filled this hole. i thank him every night now for the blessings i have in my life. So all i have to say is this: thank-you 2011 for one interesting year, but you wont be missed, i only hope that i learned my lessons for good this past year and through those lessons i can make better choices for my future. So with any further adu bring it on 2012, i’m ready ;)